Ms. Typewriter

Sometimes grief just eats you up. You feel like crying loudly and tell the world that you can no longer handle it. You are just done with your life. Sometimes you can't even cry and there is a weird sorrow inside your stomach. You can neither vent it out nor let out a cry.  I wonder what has my life turned into. A complete mess! When you think finally things are falling into place, that's when you realise it's beginning of a new obstacle. The only question which remains in my mind is 'Why me?' I never thought that a girl who always excelled in studies will fail in life. Failure never hurts me but the expectations which I keep from people does. I always thought a heart which is truthful can live a beautiful life but that's a complete lie. A liar lives the best life. You should know how to trick and manipulate. But I still haven't learned it yet! I don't even want to!  How do fake people live? I always wonder. Aren't they tired of putting u

You know what's the toughest stage in life? It's when you don't know whether you want to live or die. Your mind is just confused, stuck and blank. Somedays you want to achieve a lot of things in your life and somedays you just don't feel like getting up from bed. You feel like you have no reason to live and no reason to die either! 'You got one life and you need to live it according to your terms!' - I have heard such lines from many life coaches and others. But do we even get to live according to our terms? If you are a woman- then you don't have choice in anything. Even if you are independent, somewhere your life always gets stuck between family and career. Woman are just trained from childhood, trained to be people pleaser. You ate a chocolate without your parents permission, you are a bad girl. You chose black t-shirt- you are bad because your mother likes white. In this cycle, we forget what do we like actually? We eventually start killing o