To live or to die?

You know what's the toughest stage in life? It's when you don't know whether you want to live or die. Your mind is just confused, stuck and blank. Somedays you want to achieve a lot of things in your life and somedays you just don't feel like getting up from bed. You feel like you have no reason to live and no reason to die either!

'You got one life and you need to live it according to your terms!' - I have heard such lines from many life coaches and others. But do we even get to live according to our terms? If you are a woman- then you don't have choice in anything. Even if you are independent, somewhere your life always gets stuck between family and career. Woman are just trained from childhood, trained to be people pleaser. You ate a chocolate without your parents permission, you are a bad girl. You chose black t-shirt- you are bad because your mother likes white. In this cycle, we forget what do we like actually? We eventually start killing our dreams for the so called honor of our family. We frustrate ourselves to keep them family. We seem very happy from outside. But, if someone is to see the storm we have hidden inside. What would happen? All would leave our life because every single person is somewhere the reason for your misery. The greatest reason is YOU, YOURSELF! Because you gave the key to many wrong people! Now you don't have any option left, You don't know whether to live or to die!