Ms. Typewriter

I feel like my life has become just like a kite. I am flying high but someone has held the string to control me. I want to fly with my own wings but they are clipped by my near and dear ones.  Why was I handed over to someone who never valued my wings?  My wings are meant to fly. They are meant to travel to great heights and conquer the world which I had dreamnt. Sometimes I feel, I was so stupid to think-My life, My wish. But the reality is something else.  My life but their wish! My wings but their control! My dreams but their will! With each passing day I started to bury myself and a new person started growing. I wasn't familiar with this new person in fact I didn't like but I couldn't help. I was changing for others. I forgot that in this process I am losing my happiness. Now, I am stuck in between two boats. I want to go back to my old self but I couldn't leave my new self behind. It has started haunting me. It has led to many sleepless nights.  Who I a

Life is all about memories.  Some good, some bad, some weird, some crazy, some sad, some happy and many more.When I was a little girl, I was very sensitive. When someone would talk bad about me, it took me many days to overcome that. But luckily,I had this habit of forgetting any bad memory. I could never remember it again no matter how hard I used to try. I was happy with that because I had no fear of going back to those memories and crying at it. When I grew up, this habit of mine changed. I started to keep every bad memory within me. There are lot of incidents in my life where I got hurt and learned my lesson too. But the pain which came along got deep into my heart. I couldn't show it to anyone. I started pretending to hide it. I didn't want people to tag me as a weak woman. I pretended to have  that  I DONT CARE attitude.But deep down I was broken. I wanted to cry and complain but I knew it wasn't worth it. By pretending for so many years, I lost myself. I

"Why isn't Sara picking up my call?" - Aru frowned at herself. Aru caught an auto and went to Sara's accommodation. She found it locked. Now Aru started getting worried. Sara never behaved like this.  She rang the doorbell next door, who happened to be Mrs. Fernandes, Sara's neighbour. Mrs. Fernandes opened the door and gave her a warm smile.  "Hello aunty, do you know where Sara has gone? She isn't picking up my calls since two days and I checked the door it seemed to be locked. Do you know anything?" Aru asked in one go. "Don't you know? Sara is admitted in the hospital. " Mrs. Fernandes  replied softly. Aru felt like someone has pulled the ground beneath her legs. She felt like her throat had dried up. She asked about the hospital address and left from there.  ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Aru's heart pained to see her best friend, Sara between those tubes and monitors. Why di

The days back then, were wonderful, Hearts were bigger, houses were small. Smiles were real, fights were rare. Relations were true, promises weren't fake. Games were meaningful, playing outside was fun. Love was pure, joys were shared. But now, Hearts are smaller, houses are big. Smiles are fake,fights are common. Relations are false, promises are broken. Games are meaningless, playing inside is fun. Love is impure, joys are hidden.  Where are we heading to? This new life is pushing us to depression and loneliness.  People are used just like things and things are valued for their price.  I want to go back to those days and value my relations and find true love. Unlike now, I don't want to get used by others for their needs. I want to be loved for what I am. Will those days come back ever? 

I had so many dreams while growing up. I wanted to be a doctor. I wanted to be successful.  I wanted to look after my parents.  I wanted to be financially  independent.  But as I started growing, these dreams started getting foggy. I was pushed to see the reality. Life doesn't go the way you think. All your dreams aren't meant to be fulfilled. Some are just meant to be dreams. I was so engrossed in living in my dream land that I was hurt when reality slapped my face. I wondered why did it even happen to me? Then I realised, I was a bird. I was that bird which my parents took care of with utmost love. My wings were nurtured and they always made sure to stand beside me when I flew. But one day, they left me. They gave me to someone who put me inside a golden cage. I saw people envying  me because I had this golden cage, but they failed to see that I was bound to a cage. How does it matter if it is made up of gold or anything else? I am already a prisoner anyhow. I wan

As I stand in front of the mirror, I no longer see that girl ,who laughed at the silliest jokes.  I no longer see that girl, who was excited for wearing a new dress and a matching pair of earrings.  I no longer see that girl, who was proud of herself for excelling in her academics. I no longer see that girl, who liked to spend hours talking to her friends. I no longer see that girl, who was the apple of her parents eyes. I no longer see that girl, who couldn't stop rambling  about small things. I no longer see that girl who lazed around all day without any worries. Now, As I stand in the mirror, I find a woman, who don't feel like laughing. I find a woman, who don't have time to get dressed up. I find a woman, who just keeps staring at her certificates with tears in her eyes.  I find a woman who has none to share her thoughts.  I find a woman, who is a burden to her parents. I find a woman, who don't get words to speak. I find a woman, who works all day with

Do you sometimes feel like you have everything yet you miss something?  Do you sometimes feel like you have a big family but no one to share your feelings? Do you sometimes feel like you have the love of your life beside you, yet not happy? Do you sometimes feel like running away from everything and never come back? Do you sometimes feel like going back to the good times and stay there forever? Do you sometimes feel like taking your heart out and show it how badly its hurt? Do you sometimes feel like standing alone and pat your shoulders for coming a long way in life? Do you sometimes feel like shouting at people for hurting you badly yet you remain silent for the sake of relations? All these emotional turmoil aren't normal. We often tend to suppress our feelings to please others. We keep them deep inside our hearts and fake a smile, which will tear us down bit by bit. We tend to forget our true self by masking a smile. But remember that one day all these feelings will

Life has so many definitions. Life is different for each one. Growing up I remember this one quote " Life is like an ice cream, enjoy it before it melts." Though I didn't understand the meaning of it that time, but it surely reminded me of the taste of ice cream every time I read that! But now, I can understand it simply meant that enjoy your life to the fullest before you leave this earth forever. What is life? If some one had asked me about it, I would have answered Life is a book, which is a compilation of lessons learned at every step as one grows. Do you agree with me? We may have passed our education with good grades and marks but we cannot make sure that we will pass the exams of life in a similar way. I was a dreamer from a very young age. I would always dream of being a doctor and treating people. But when I grew up I couldn't be one. Maybe because it wasn't destines for me. Then I came to know that nothing actually happens what we think in li

Her fate was twisted, Like those thread to form a rope, She looked deep into her palms, To find him in between those lines, The lines had a story to say, Her heart would be broken in a big way, For her,love was an emotion, It was deep like that ocean, But, this world wasn't soft, Her innocence was frowned aloft, She was used, like a ragged cloth, She had none back and froth, It took her long to learn the lesson, Why was her fate a big question? Maybe she didn't belong to this world! Where lust and modesty was sold!

Dear parents, Today as I was glancing through my childhood album, I went back to the memory lane. Memories kept flashing through my mind like a black and white movie. Every picture had endless stories behind. I smiled at it. Maybe it was a genuine smile after so many years. You were happy when I was born, isn't it? Then, why did it upset you when I reached my mid-twenties. You were only bothered about society and its double standards.  Why?  Was I a burden to you?  Was it my fault that I was born as a daughter? I never had complaints with you. You gave me the best. But, when it came to marriage , you failed to give me the best. Your decision changed my destiny. I was pushed into a hell which looked like heaven to many.  The first time when I went through abuse, I kept quiet. Because I didn't want to trouble you. I didn't want to bother you. It continued and when I no longer could take it, I sought your help. But your words just shattered my world. "Adjust ,

Flowers weren't scattered on her path, The seas were dark with wrath, How often could she hold it back? The older the wound, the harder they crack! What did she gain by that silence? A handful of accusations and violence! This was her end, they nearly thought, Her mind and her heart always fought! To stay or to leave, there wasn't any choice, Her every guilt free tears made them rejoice! She smiled for one last time, Before they committed the crime, She was freed from their torture, They became her life's author, Flowers were now scattered on her grave, She would have lived, if she was brave!

They say we die when the soul leaves the body. But I would say,  we die when we get betrayed,  We die when our love and care is taken for granted, We die when our dreams get shattered, We die when our voice gets suppressed, We die when our wings are clipped, We die when our tears are dried, We die when our smiles are plastered, We die when our hopes are broken, We die when our relationships are faked, We die when our feelings are ignored, We die when not cared, We die day by day and little by little, But yet they say we die when the soul leaves the body!