Ms. Typewriter

"I have never seen such an irresponsible person in my life." - Sharath was yelling. "But I have seen such a person. Infact that person is the most irresponsible one I have ever seen." - Radhika said calmly. "Really! Who is that?" Sharath raised his brows. "He"- Radhika pointed towards the mirror. Sharath was stumped.  Radhika smiled and said -" You are the most irresponsible  person I have ever seen. Did you forget how you used to treat me during initial  days of our marriage?" "How can you even come up with the same thing after so many years?" He questioned with a frustrated look. "I can never forget those days. The only difference is now you got to know the real pain when it happened with your daughter. Back then, you forgot that even I was someone's daughter who was raised with utmost care and love." Radhika spoke wiping her tears. Sharath was guilty now. She was right, in the initial days of their

When your trust is broken, It is very difficult to restore it back. It takes a lot of time to trust anyone again. A broken trust is just like crumpled paper, no matter how hard you try you cannot restore it back to its original form.  Trust is the more important thing in any relationship. Once it's broken, it's gone. No amount of apology will bring back that trust again. You fear falling in love again. You fear to go closer to people. You start doubting people who wants to come closer to you. You start building strong walls around yourself and not let anyone enter it. All in all, you become a completely different individual.  People will start saying that you have changed a lot. But will never know what made you change to such an extent. Its very easy to judge. Every person is fighting. Every person is in war with himself. The difference is some are experts in hiding their emotions and worries. A ever smiling person would be the one who is suffering the most. People

It's often easy to advice about 'forget and forgive'. When I went through abuse people around me adviced me a lot about this and the saddest thing was people who went through it said forget and forgive. Is it so easy to do that? It took me a good amount of time to forgive people who hurt me and broke my self confidence. I had grudges against them. I wanted to see them suffer just like how I did. It may sound rude but my state of mind was like that. There were many sleepless nights and my days were spent in overthinking. I realised that holding on to the things which are meant to let go causes you more problems. Gradually I learned to let go. It wasn't easy. It isn't an overnight change. I am person who don't accept change easily. It takes lot of time for me. Now I am in such a stage where I don't feel anything for them. I have no love nor hatred for them. Because they don't deserve anything from my side. Let go of anger. Let go of grudges. Le

Sometimes you don't understand why you are sad. There might not be any reason for your sadness and you cannot be happy either. You feel like something is missing in your life. There comes many questions in your mind and while you try to find answers to those questions you fail miserably.  I feel like crying out loudly sometimes. Not in front of anyone but alone in my room where no one would see me in such a vulnerable state. Because not all care for your genuinely, some are just happy to see you broken. So, I hide my tears in front of them. I don't want to let them win though I am broken from inside. There were times when I used to depend on people to get rid of that empty feeling inside me. I used to go on and on about my state of mind. Some gave me advices and some just shut me off. I don't blame them because not all are meant to hear you out. You cannot pour your heart to any random person. It has to be someone special. This is what I learned gradually. So, n

Dear old me, I won't ask you how you are? After death does anyone ask you how you are? No! That's how i am now. I am dead and who killed me? It's me! I killed myself!  I killed myself for those selfish people who were never mine. I killed myself for those people who sold my smile to keep their life happy. I killed myself to fulfill their dreams. I killed myself to please people. I killed myself for fake words of appreciation. I killed myself to survive in this worthless society. I feel very bad sometimes. I don't like this new me. I have changed a lot. I have lost my originality. I have lost my innocence. I have started to pretend to be happy which I am not. I am like a stone now with no hard feelings. I cannot smile genuinely. I cannot cry genuinely.  Where have I ended up? I loved you so much. I was proud of you. But, still I chose to kill you. Old me, I miss you and I know you will never come back. I will keep missing you till my last breathe. From, New m

Rekha wiped off the beads of sweat from her forehead as she switched off the lights of the kitchen. It was a heavy day for her today. There were guests from morning who came up to visit her bedridden mother in law. Rekha like a good daughter in law welcomed all of them happily.  She opened the cupboard to take her night clothes. There fell a photograph. It was her photograph in bharatnatyam costume from her college days. She looked young,energetic and her eyes shone with enthusiasm. She looked at herself in the mirror and found that she has changed. She looked tired, bored and her eyes didn't have any spark left. She again looked at the photograph and smiled.  "I would never compromise my bharatnatyam for anyone. I will find a husband who will support my passion." Rekha used to tell her friends during college days. Now she thought how naive and innocent she was back then. She got married to Ram, soon after her graduation. Though it was an arranged marriage, Ra

It poured again,  Creating ripples and pitter patter, Cold winds blew into her face, Reminding her of his soothing love, Hand in hand was all she wanted, A minute of care was all she carved for, She jumped into those puddles , Forgetting all about her worries,  She held onto the umbrella of hope, In search of that rainbow, Which would turn her colourless life into colours, Which would turn her dreams into reality, Which would bring her from darkness to light. It poured again, From her eyes this time, Reminding her of his betrayal, Hearts were wounded,  Ego remained grounded, Till when will she cry? There is a day she had to die! No umbrella could shield her, No shade could protect her, She was dishonored, She was splintered, The dark clouds subsided, The sun spread its warmth, She was engulfed by that love,  That love which was pure as water, That love which was spotless like a pearl. It poured again, This time she was alone and happy, Her grief was washed away, Her joys we

They envy her smile, But fail to see her tears every night, They envy her success, But fail to see her getting crushed between societal norms. They envy her achievement,  But fail to see those slanders spread about her. They envy her confidence, But fail to see how she stands up after being pushed down. They envy her, Because she is a woman who isn't scared to be herself!

Today morning, as I opened the social media, I saw a couple of wishes on mother's day occasion.  There were many offers also going on in many online and offline stores too for this occasion. I was surprised, a mother deserves to be celebrated everyday for her scarifices, selfless love and what not. Everyday is a mothers day because a mother never rests. When I became a mother, I got many free advices from mothers around me. Some were like irritating me to the core. I wanted to tell that -" we are living a modern world and none of those old techniques work now." At one point I was so fed up that I hated meeting people. I slumped down into depression. I started feeling guilty about not taking enough care of my child. But then I realised every mother is also like a new born child. She doesn't know anything. She has to learn everything step by step. The thing which every new mother can do is learn and take only needed advice. Don't crowd your mind with all

The nature is so beautiful. So am I,  in my own ways, How beautiful is that seed which turns to a plant! How beautiful is that bud with turns to a flower! How beautiful are those clouds which pour without any hesitation! How beautiful are those sunsets which set to come again tomorrow! How beautiful is the morning which shines so bright! How beautiful is the night which illuminates the moonlight! How beautiful are those winds which blows across the lands! How beautiful are those waves which rise and fall and meet at the shore! How beautiful are those leaves which falls out to give space to new ones! How beautiful is every season and the memories with it! Nature is always changing, Nature is always giving, Nature is beautiful! So am l, in my own ways! Will you accept me the same way as you accept the changing Nature?

When I was a teenager, I used to believe happiness lies in those luxurious lifestyle. I always dreamnt of having one. I used to see rich people who were happy.  But, as I grew older, I learned that happiness didn't depend on materialistic  things.  It depended on those small moments which couldn't be bought by money.  It depended on being contented and grateful for the things you have. It depended on the small gestures of love from your near and dear ones. It depended on the effort you would do to bring a smile on those who are sad. It depended on the effort you would make to show a ray of hope to people who lost that spark in their life. Life is all about spreading happiness wherever you can. It can be by helping, caring, loving and sharing. Life is all about living in between those smiles and cries. It's all about ups and downs. No one knows when we will leave this place. Until you are here,help someone genuinely.  People these days help each other for their s