My happiness

Lately, I have tried to remain happy and calm as much as I can. It took me a long time to realise that, this life isn't worth worrying about others opnions about yourself. Now, I am guilty of wasting my precious time and tears on people who aren't even worth in the book of my life.
So, for whoever has suffered or is suffering like me- always keep one thing in mind, the people who love you would never think of hurting you and the people who hurt you are never yours! Stay away and I would say just cut off. I have got a lot of advices for cutting off people from my life. But, I had already decided that - From now on, I would live my life according to my terms and conditions not according to society and their needs! Trust me I am happiest one for removing the closest people who weren't healthy for my mental.

My happiness was inside me. The thing was I saw only the darkness and forgot that there is always a window open to the light. I kept passing down in that darkness. Some days I was even scared that I had started liking that darkness. I knew it wasn't good for me but still I had no choice. I wanted to forgive but couldn't because all I wanted was to seek revenge from the people who did bad to me. I almost forgot that they will suffer when their time comes. Today its me and tomorrow  it will be them! Finally, after all the chaos I am at peace.
 I have forgiven but haven't forgotten.
I have healed.
I have grown.
I have learned.
I have started living again!
So, congratulations  to the new life which I chose for myself with T&C applied as long its healthy for me!

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