Ms. Typewriter

Sometimes you don't understand why you are sad. There might not be any reason for your sadness and you cannot be happy either. You feel like something is missing in your life. There comes many questions in your mind and while you try to find answers to those questions you fail miserably.  I feel like crying out loudly sometimes. Not in front of anyone but alone in my room where no one would see me in such a vulnerable state. Because not all care for your genuinely, some are just happy to see you broken. So, I hide my tears in front of them. I don't want to let them win though I am broken from inside. There were times when I used to depend on people to get rid of that empty feeling inside me. I used to go on and on about my state of mind. Some gave me advices and some just shut me off. I don't blame them because not all are meant to hear you out. You cannot pour your heart to any random person. It has to be someone special. This is what I learned gradually. So, n...

Healing after a trauma is never easy. The abuser might have broke your confidence, your self respect and your happiness. You might feel like dark clouds have surrounded your life. You might think that these clouds will never subside. Your brain seems to be fogged by all those blames, insults and words. I won't say healing is easy. Its never easy. To heal, one has to accept the pain. But what most of us do is we don't accept our pain. We live with guilt , remorse and regret. These things will never allow us to move on. They are like a string which holds the kite. The kite moves only when the string is controlled. You have to cut off that string and learn to fly. Learn from your experiences. Never blame yourself for someone's mental condition. If an abuser keeps mentally torturing , then its definitely not your mistake. It shows his true colors. They will try their best to manipulate and blame you for no fault of yours. You will be like caught inside a web of lies...