Ms. Typewriter

Sometimes grief just eats you up. You feel like crying loudly and tell the world that you can no longer handle it. You are just done with your life. Sometimes you can't even cry and there is a weird sorrow inside your stomach. You can neither vent it out nor let out a cry.  I wonder what has my life turned into. A complete mess! When you think finally things are falling into place, that's when you realise it's beginning of a new obstacle. The only question which remains in my mind is 'Why me?' I never thought that a girl who always excelled in studies will fail in life. Failure never hurts me but the expectations which I keep from people does. I always thought a heart which is truthful can live a beautiful life but that's a complete lie. A liar lives the best life. You should know how to trick and manipulate. But I still haven't learned it yet! I don't even want to!  How do fake people live? I always wonder. Aren't they tired of putting u...

The day came to an end and my work too! The set of this day's responsibility ended with worry of next day's work. Every night when I lay down I wonder how much I have changed in these three years. There were days when I enjoyed doing everything but now everything feels like a burden. The relationship which was everything for me is now just a name sake ship which keeps sailing without any destination. Sometimes I laugh at myself for being so stupid and naive. I thought , if you give love you'll receive love.  If you give respect ,you'll recieve respect. If you do good, you'll be treated good. But none of these is true. You will always be taken for granted. In fact no one wants to even acknowledge that you are a human being too who not only needs food, water and shelter but also love , respect and care. Why didn't I live for myself? I always keep thinking about it. Maybe because I was so busy finding my happiness in others who never deserved my love. I...

After a while, I learned this world isn't for the kind. After a while, I learned that not all are meant to stay. After a while, I learned that heartbreaks are the real breaks. After a while, I learned that actions are always greater than words. After a while, I learned it was hard to unlearn certain emotions. After a while, I learned to lean on a wall instead of a shoulder. After a while, I learned its always you and yourself. After a while, I learned not to give the power of trust to all. After a while, I learned to be silent when my words aren't valued. After a while, I learned to speak only when it hit the right chord. After a while, I learned that truth will always remain high After a while, I learned people change more rapidly than seasons. After a while, I learned to let go of situations which harm my mental health. After a while, I learned accept the changes and change myself when needed. After a while, I learned to see beauty in broken things and relationshi...

Many times we take life for granted.  That single breathe of ours is so precious. But we don't value it until we are at the verge of losing it.  That family relative is so valuable. But we don't value it until we lose them due to some really petty issues.  That friendship of ours is so beautiful. We don't care for it until they are a gone and we are left with regrets.  That bond with our parents is so pure. We don't understand it until they are gone forever. Sometimes we are too late to show someone that we love, care and value them. We think there is a lot of time but we forget that time waits for none. If you love someone say it today. If you care for someone then show them today. If you value someone then express it today. Because no one knows when we would be leaving this place.  We have got one life but many things to love and cherish. You cannot sit around and cry for something which you cannot change. You cannot spend your entire life regretti...

I am not living, I am fighting with my fate. I am not living, I am fighting with my tears. I am not living, I am fighting to be grounded. I am not living, I am fighting to stay normal. I am not living, I am fighting for my soul. I am not living, I am fighting to stay calm. I am not living, I am fighting to find myself. I am not living, I am fighting to rescue my dreams. I am not living, I am fighting to stay alive!

For the heart which keeps grieving, For the heart which keeps shattering, For the heart which keeps getting fooled, For the heart which keeps getting wounded, For the heart which keeps forgiving For the heart which takes forever for healing, Don't worry you are stronger than you think. You are like a boat which keeps sailing between storms and strong waves yet don't drown.  You are like that bird which keeps flying through dark clouds and finally get to see the sun. You are like that seed which blooms by the strong winds and drops of rain. Every day is not the same. Some days are gloomy Some days are bloomy, Some days you are on cloud nine, Some days you are inside a dark room, Some days you love the rain, Some days you hate the sunshine, Its OK whatever you feel. Accept whatever your situation is and don't run away from it. The more you run the more it occupies your mind. When it occupies your mind your life becomes a mess.  Whatever the situation maybe don...

Someone just asked me ," Has the greatest moment in your life arrived?" I failed to answer the question and just smiled. What would I say? There are so many moments in my life which are so special and close to my heart.  Is it the moment when I saw my tears of joy in my mother's eye when I was awarded a rank? Is it the moment when my dad whispered," I am proud of you" when I got a job. Is it the moment when my relatives envied my success? Is it the moment when my friend's sister told me ," Sister, you are an inspiration and I want to become like you." Is it the moment when I saw my daughter, my bundle of joy for the first time? Is it the moment when I held my son for the first time? Is it the moment when my daughter wiped away my tears and assured that everything will be OK? Is it the moment when my son stood up for me and fought for my rights? Is it the moment when I was at the verge of giving up but fought back against all odds? Is it...

Maintaing boundaries in any relationship is very important. You cannot let people enter your life, use you as they need and leave you. It will leave you devasted and you start losing trust on people. Healthy boundaries will help you to keep your mental health at bay.  Relationships are like bridges. It connects people both physically and emotionally with love, care, understanding, trust and hope. But sometimes when you are too good to people, they take advantage of you. That's when you will have to burn the bridge. There are people who will break your heart without any reason. There are people who will envy your success. There are people who will mock your failure. There are people who will let you down. There are people who won't acknowledge you. Burn the bridge between such people before its too late. Don't let their negativity enter your heart and shatter your confidence.Learn to say NO when you aren't comfortable with something. Don't compromise your...

It's often easy to advice about 'forget and forgive'. When I went through abuse people around me adviced me a lot about this and the saddest thing was people who went through it said forget and forgive. Is it so easy to do that? It took me a good amount of time to forgive people who hurt me and broke my self confidence. I had grudges against them. I wanted to see them suffer just like how I did. It may sound rude but my state of mind was like that. There were many sleepless nights and my days were spent in overthinking. I realised that holding on to the things which are meant to let go causes you more problems. Gradually I learned to let go. It wasn't easy. It isn't an overnight change. I am person who don't accept change easily. It takes lot of time for me. Now I am in such a stage where I don't feel anything for them. I have no love nor hatred for them. Because they don't deserve anything from my side. Let go of anger. Let go of grudges. Le...

When I was a teenager, I used to believe happiness lies in those luxurious lifestyle. I always dreamnt of having one. I used to see rich people who were happy.  But, as I grew older, I learned that happiness didn't depend on materialistic  things.  It depended on those small moments which couldn't be bought by money.  It depended on being contented and grateful for the things you have. It depended on the small gestures of love from your near and dear ones. It depended on the effort you would do to bring a smile on those who are sad. It depended on the effort you would make to show a ray of hope to people who lost that spark in their life. Life is all about spreading happiness wherever you can. It can be by helping, caring, loving and sharing. Life is all about living in between those smiles and cries. It's all about ups and downs. No one knows when we will leave this place. Until you are here,help someone genuinely.  People these days help each other...

Do you sometimes feel like you have everything yet you miss something?  Do you sometimes feel like you have a big family but no one to share your feelings? Do you sometimes feel like you have the love of your life beside you, yet not happy? Do you sometimes feel like running away from everything and never come back? Do you sometimes feel like going back to the good times and stay there forever? Do you sometimes feel like taking your heart out and show it how badly its hurt? Do you sometimes feel like standing alone and pat your shoulders for coming a long way in life? Do you sometimes feel like shouting at people for hurting you badly yet you remain silent for the sake of relations? All these emotional turmoil aren't normal. We often tend to suppress our feelings to please others. We keep them deep inside our hearts and fake a smile, which will tear us down bit by bit. We tend to forget our true self by masking a smile. But remember that one day all these feelings will ...

They say we die when the soul leaves the body. But I would say,  we die when we get betrayed,  We die when our love and care is taken for granted, We die when our dreams get shattered, We die when our voice gets suppressed, We die when our wings are clipped, We die when our tears are dried, We die when our smiles are plastered, We die when our hopes are broken, We die when our relationships are faked, We die when our feelings are ignored, We die when not cared, We die day by day and little by little, But yet they say we die when the soul leaves the body!