Pages from diary of a broken heart girl

26/7/2014,
I know you are fine after breaking my heart. I know you would be enjoying and partying after giving me lot of pain.

I must say that you are a very wonderful actor. Your acting skills are marvelous. I am astonished at how skillfully you made me to fall for you. How well you acted as if you cared for me, you loved me.
I can’t blame only you for all this. Even I am a culprit. I shouldn’t have believed you so easily. I tried my best not to fall for you. But I couldn’t resist myself. Yours words, your caring nature, your attractive personality made me to fall for you. I regret for that now.

The day when u proposed me was a shock for me. I couldn’t believe myself how a best friend could ever do that? I kept on telling you that let us not go beyond friendship. But you never accepted it. You were stuck to it. You loved me.

Days passed on and gradually I started falling for you. I Started loving you more than anything in this world. We never got tired of speaking to each other. A single minute without you was impossible to live. Each and every decision of our lives was taken by discussing with each other. There were no secrets, no lies between us.

Life was just beautiful because you were there in my life. Every moment was special for me.
A year passed on and you started changing. You started ignoring me. You were annoyed by my voice. Our conversations became limited. You started moving away from me. I didn’t want you to let go but you fought with me hurt me for silly reasons.

One evening as I had gone out with friends to a shopping mall, I saw you!! Yes!!! It was you!! I thought you were there to give me a surprise; all my friends were speaking how lucky you are to have him in your life!!! I was happy.

I started coming towards you. Just when I was about to reach you some other girl hugged you. I was blank. I just moved away from there. I couldn’t see you with some else. I rang up to you and asked who was she with whom you were there in the shopping mall?? Your answer was – “That’s my girl. I love her. I was about to tell you about this. Now u have come to know about it I just want to tell you that you were not the type of girl I needed. I have got the one. So let’s break up.!!!!”. Hearing your words I didn’t know what to answer back. I was shattered. Tears started flowing from my eyes.
How can you forget all those lovely moments we spent together? How could you forget all those promises that you made? How could you forget how I supported you every time? How could you forget how we never got tired of speaking to each other?  How could you forget how you used to understand my silence and words? How could you forget I was the one who never left you in any hard situations?? How could you??

I was broken. I was cheated for loving truly. I was given an excellent reward for believing you.

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30/8/2014,

I picked up the pesticide bottle. I thought of all the moments spent with you. I wished you would come back. I was about to drink it but someone snatched the bottle. I turned around to see who it was. It was my parents.

They hugged me with tears in their eyes. I wept. I wept till my heart became lighter.
I recalled all those moments when my parents were beside me. When I was small and when I fell down how dad used to pick me up. How mom used to understand my silence and words when I was little. How they loved me, cared for me. They never left me in any situation. They were with me in my joys as well as sorrows.

I thought how I could end my life for a guy who just used me. My life was given by my parents and god. I don’t have any right to end it up in this way. No!!! I will not !!!. I will live. I will live for my parents.  I will achieve my dreams. Yes!!! This will be my life!!!

 I realized there is no love greater than parents love.
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1/1/2015,

 Today was a big day for me. I was being honored for my social work. I am satisfied with my life.
My parents were proud of me and it could be easily made out through tears of joy in their eyes. This was the happiest moment for me. I love you mom dad.

Now one more dream of my parents was to see me with my own family. Hope to find my prince charming soon.
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