Ms. Typewriter

I am literally amazed at how fast this year passed. I am like it was just yesterday a new year came and tomorrow we are at the end of the year. This year was indeed special for me not because it gave me many things but because it gave me few things with great lessons. At the beginning of this year I lost hope. I felt like this was the end of my life. I couldn't see any happiness or joy coming from any side. All I could see was darkness , emptiness and loneliness. But I didn't give up. I don't know what and how but I kept fighting. I kept fighting for what was right even when no one supported me. I kept fighting for my self respect. I kept fighting for my children. I know this fight will take a lot of time to win. And frankly saying I don't even care about winning anymore. All that matters to me is my mental health which is becoming stable after lot of struggle. I would often feel like I am inside a deep ocean. There is darkness everywhere. I am scared of swi...

After a while, I learned this world isn't for the kind. After a while, I learned that not all are meant to stay. After a while, I learned that heartbreaks are the real breaks. After a while, I learned that actions are always greater than words. After a while, I learned it was hard to unlearn certain emotions. After a while, I learned to lean on a wall instead of a shoulder. After a while, I learned its always you and yourself. After a while, I learned not to give the power of trust to all. After a while, I learned to be silent when my words aren't valued. After a while, I learned to speak only when it hit the right chord. After a while, I learned that truth will always remain high After a while, I learned people change more rapidly than seasons. After a while, I learned to let go of situations which harm my mental health. After a while, I learned accept the changes and change myself when needed. After a while, I learned to see beauty in broken things and relationshi...

Her light was growing dim, She kept watching him, How fast her life changed? Or maybe her life was rearranged! From her to his, From we to us! She was looked down, With many reasons to frown, Her own skin pricked to death, Hopes died but she breathe! The sun never shone in her sky, All she did was only cry. Words were lighter than air, Crumpling the rose in her hair, What bad did she do? She fell in love so true! His fire burned the ties, He was a beast in a man's disguise, Lies were scattered all around, The shining world crushed to the ground, The flowers lost their scent, Gripped with fear her life was spent, Her eyes were hard and ashamed, For no fault her fate was chained, The world worshipped him as sane, In her world,he was a bane, Colourful dreams faded soon, And left the sky with a faint moon, Every night she was painted, With shades of dark and tainted, Morning came with hues of pink, The reality made her sink, She wasn't his permanent ink, Did she ever ha...

She was once that girl, Who was scared of darkness, Now, darkness is her friend! She was once that girl, Who hated to be alone, Now, being alone is her fate! She was once that girl, Who laughed at silly things, Now, laughter is her poison! She was once that girl, Who had colourful dreams, Now, dream was her curse! She was once that girl, Who had a heart of gold, Now, her heart is a rock! She was once a girl, Who was full of hope, Now, hope was her bane! She was once a girl, Who bubbled with joy, Now, joy was her melancholy! She was once a girl, Who loved to live, Now, love became her death!

When the storm hits the sea, Will you be my saviour? When grief pours down the eyes, Will you wipe them away? When darkness engulfs the life, Will you be my light? When the world shuts me down? Will you lift me up? When words fail to express, Will you talk for me? When my shoulders get burdened, Will you share the weight? When I don't have a reason to love, Will you love me till eternity? When there are endless chances to give up, Will you still fight for me?

Many times we take life for granted.  That single breathe of ours is so precious. But we don't value it until we are at the verge of losing it.  That family relative is so valuable. But we don't value it until we lose them due to some really petty issues.  That friendship of ours is so beautiful. We don't care for it until they are a gone and we are left with regrets.  That bond with our parents is so pure. We don't understand it until they are gone forever. Sometimes we are too late to show someone that we love, care and value them. We think there is a lot of time but we forget that time waits for none. If you love someone say it today. If you care for someone then show them today. If you value someone then express it today. Because no one knows when we would be leaving this place.  We have got one life but many things to love and cherish. You cannot sit around and cry for something which you cannot change. You cannot spend your entire life regretti...

When do we actually change? I have come across many people in my life who changed for better and worst.  Few years back,I was quite a judgemental person. I used to judge people a lot. I will not lie but I have hurt many people too. I have even been hurt by them also. When I reached rock bottom in my life, I came to know that ,not everything is as we see.People are different and so are their perspectives. People change when something big happens in their life - be it bad or good. A simple word or a talk can impact someone's life to a great extent.  Every person has deep secrets within them. Some like to share and some like to hide. We hurt them very badly by being judgemental. As they say never judge a book by its cover, I would say never judge a person because of his smile. Its the one who smiles a lot who hides a lot.  I used to be so blunt that there were times when I told people about how they changed. I didn't even like it when someone changed. But now I k...